I will never never never ever forgive myself.

I know i hurt him too deep that i dont deserve any empathy. But deep me i'm hurt too.
I know my pain cant be compared to his. But i'm really sad and depressed too.
Friends I know, though not that close, saying 'a leopard will never change its spots'.
I know I cant blame them from saying this but could anyone see it from my view.
I know i deserve anyone to put themselve in my shoe cause I bring it upon myself. But I really realise my mistake.I really wanna prove you people wrong that i'm not a leopard!

I know I don't deserve any empathy or forgiveness..but I juz wanna say that I cried till I feel my nose is bleeding and my eye lids are sore.
I know no amount of tears will solve the problem cause i brought it upon myself.

I really hope he can stand back up again and be happy.
As for me..no forgiveness needed cause seeing him back to normal state will ease my pain.